Now it starts

I got a call today from our counselor that our homestudy has been approved. So now starts the truly hard part of waiting. It will still be a week or two before we can be shown to families or anything, we have to get all the official paper work signed and filed and such. But we are completely done with the process and all we have left is waiting. So ready, get set, and wait.......

Just wanted to share

Here is the first and biggest painting I have been planning to do to decorate the nursery... I'm not very artsy and its not the best but I'm pretty proud of it haha I guess I'll have to share the others whenever I get around to them.

need to vent a bit

I am not trying to offend anyone by what I am saying but really just gotta get it out there...... I'm not even really upset right now but these are things that have bothered me in the past so I felt the need to share

There are always reactions when you announce that you are adopting. I prepared myself trying to think of the things people would say. But a couple things are starting to bother me after hearing them 100xs over. 

Adoption is not our second choice. Often times when we tell people we are adopting this is something that is assumed. It is not our second choice and can not be our second choice, because we only made ONE choice, and that was to become parents. It does not matter to me how we meet our goal of becoming parents. And I have trouble understanding why people think any biological child would be better than an adopted one, at least at times that is what I feel people are implying and sometimes out right saying. I had one woman say to me "But its so much fun to see them act like you and see how they look like you and what traits and characteristics they get from you" I didn't even have a response. I ended up saying, "why would I want another me?"

I thought I would be able to tolerate the comment that I knew and expected to get over and over, but for some reason it is the main one driving me crazy and making me respond meanly. It's the classic "as soon as you adopt you will get pregnant, I know 15 people that adopted and right after they adopted they got pregnant." .. so frustrating. I dont know why I am letting it bother me. Initially I would just smile and nod and not comment. But for some reason lately I can't help but respond by saying "I've been pregnant four times" which successfully stops them and makes them feel terrible at the same time.  I feel bad that I can't seem to just smile and nod anymore, because I know these people are well meaning but after hearing the same thing from hundreds of people it just gets old, especially when the thought of being pregnant is not fun. Being pregnant will never be fun for me, it is so jaded. Even if I were to make it farther than I have in the past, I'm a NICU nurse, I will be beyond paranoia about everything.  And again this comment makes it seem like being pregnant is better than adopting, but maybe I'm reading too much into it.

I'm real sorry for the ranting post, but I feel like I should share so that people will be mindful of the things that are said to people who know they are meant to adopt.