Decisions, Decisions

Oh so much to think about, so much unknown. What to do, what to do?!?! I am actually very excited about all the options we have. I am happy to be moving forward in our journey to becoming parents. Our main choice is: in vitro vs adoption. Oh but so much more to think about, this is definitely the biggest decision we will ever have to make.  And everyone knows I'm indecisive haha. no pressure. We will be discussing this for quite some time and figuring out the best plan for us at this time in our lives. I have a feeling we will be using multiple methods to grow our family in the future. Right now I feel like so much anxiety has been lifted, I'm sure they are soon to be replaced by new worries and anxieties.
I wanted to ask the very few people that do read this to pray for us as we begin this part of our journey, that we make the right decisions and that we are able to become parents one way or another. Thanks!!!

Number four

I have been praying and begging for weeks that I would be able to share good news, but I never get to. Don't think I will ever get to.
I lost number four. It definitely gets harder every time. Every time I realize even more that it is less likely we will ever have a child on our own. Honestly I'm not sure I ever want to try again. We have already decided we will not be trying naturally anymore, and I plan on preventing as much as possible. There is not really much to say,  same ole same ole. Went for the 2nd U/S and baby measured 7wks, perfectly still, with no heartbeat.
I don't understand why this is my life.

unbelievable

I would like to know how people do the things they do?!?

A girl I graduated with was just arrested with two charges of 1st degree murder of her newborn twin baby boys. All over the news! Apparently  hid her pregnancy the whole time. Her father found a baby and called the police who then found the other one. She had gone to work like everything was normal.

There are no words. I will never understand.