break time

it is  definitely  time for a break. it is much needed, and very relaxing. It's nice not to constantly be aware of what cycle day I'm on, when i may ovulate and am i working those days, is j working those days, do i need to sacrifice sleep just to maybe have a chance at having a baby, when can i take a test, could this month be be month, when would i be due, how old would i be when i have it.... for the time being, im just trying not to think about any of it, as of right now i am over the fact that i'm getting older everyday and still dont have a kid. I am one of those girls that has a ticking clock but it seems like ive figured out how to put the clock on hold for a little while, but im sure that clock will restart before i want it to. As for right now im am enjoying the relaxing break and focusing on the small things that make me happy. who knows how long i will be able to not pay attention to all the details of trying but i hope it will last for awhile because it feels great.